Today I organized, well at least tried to! In the process I came across my boys photo albums. I can’t believe my oldest will be a teen in just a year, my middle son just turned 10 and my baby boy will be 8 in less then a month. It’s enough to send me into a depression. I can’t possibly be old enough to have a middle school student. In fact I’m sticking to the story that I’m not!
A part of me is really excited to watch my children grow into adults, and see what life has in store for them. At the same time the selfish side of me knows that means I will just get older and eventually I will be without my babies – although my youngest son swears he is never leaving home. If that is true by the time he is my age, 30, I’m sure my tune will have changed..lol
I think it’s the fact that my daughter heads to Kindergarten next year has just thrown me for a loop. My babies are all grown – well kinda. Now comes the fun stuff. I hope it’s not true that you get back what you give, or me and my husband are in some serious trouble!
I guess I just have to look at the positive side and sit back and enjoy watching them turn into young men ( and women). It’s just so scary in today’s world, especially since I have a clear memory of everything I did when I was just a bit older the my oldest – yikes! All I can do is sit back and hope I have given them the right tools to make the correct choices and understand there still will be plenty of dumb choices they make. Of course I also have to eventually give them the freedom to make those dumb choices and lets be real I’m not sure I’ll ever be ready to do that ;-)
I suppose when I get over the feeling of sadness, and realize I will not ever be able to freeze time, I can rejoice in the fact that one day ( a long LONG time from now) I can sit back and smile, as I watch them embark on a whole new journey in life, college, careers, marriage and children.
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