Thursday, July 21, 2011

Day Five As an Ex....

I figure it was time to let you all in on my little secret, I am a smoker. Most of you may have figured that from a past review or two. A few nights ago I got this thought in my head that I was going to smoke in the morning. I had but one cigarette left and thought to myself, if I didn't tell my husband to go grab me a pack before work, I would have no choice but to not smoke.

Here I sit five days later and I am still smoke free. This is probably the hundredth attempt I have made at quitting. I'm trying the logic this time - If I made it five days, why pick up a cigarette and have to start all over. 

I wanted to share because I am felling crumby, cranky, have had a terrible headache and am slightly dizzy. I know it will get better but at this point I'm having a real hard time focus on things, like my blog. I'm trying to keep up, and keep my post making some kind of sense but am really struggling the most today. I'm also hoping sharing here might be another motivator. I mean I would hate to come back and have to post that I gave in to temptation.

So please bare with over the next few weeks, if I seem a little off. And hopefully I will be able to post next month, that I am still smoke free . Oh and let me correct that first line.. I am a EX-Smoker now.


Shelly said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Crystal...I am also an ex-smoker and it has been 2 years for me and let me tell you...even now...every day is a struggle. The physical cravings are of course gone but the mental ones are still there. When I get stressed out or in pain/not feeling well...then I want to light up. It is really hard to resist and most folks who never smoked are not supportive at all as they don't understand what it's like to go through this process.

I am cheering you on...YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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Good for you! The decision to stop smoking was one of the toughest decisions I ever made. I LOVED to smoke regardless of the ill effects it had on my body. I hated how I felt but I simply LOVED having a cigarette in my hand. I am here five years later and wouldn't trade the smoke free feeling for the world. I've gained so much by stopping smoking. This timeline was encouraging for me and maybe it will be for you too!

Smoking cessation timeline – the health benefits over time

In 20 minutes, your blood pressure and pulse rate decrease, and the body temperature of your hands and feet increase.
Carbon monoxide in cigarette smoke reduces the blood’s ability to carry oxygen. At 8 hours, the carbon monoxide level in your blood decreases to normal. With the decrease in carbon monoxide, your blood oxygen level increases to normal.
At 24 hours, your risk of having a heart attack decreases.
At 48 hours, nerve endings start to regrow and the ability to smell and taste is enhanced.
Between 2 weeks and 3 months, your circulation improves, walking becomes easier and you don’t cough or wheeze as often. Phlegm production decreases. Within several months, you have significant improvement in lung function.
In 1 to 9 months, coughs, sinus congestion, fatigue and shortness of breath decrease as you continue to see significant improvement in lung function. Cilia, tiny hair-like structures that move mucus out of the lungs, regain normal function.
In 1 year, risk of coronary heart disease and heart attack is reduced to half that of a smoker.
Between 5 and 15 years after quitting, your risk of having a stroke returns to that of a non-smoker.
In 10 years, your risk of lung cancer drops. Additionally, your risk of cancer of the mouth, throat, esophagus, bladder, kidney and pancreas decrease. Even after a decade of not smoking however, your risk of lung cancer remains higher than in people who have never smoked. Your risk of ulcer also decreases.
In 15 years, your risk of coronary heart disease and heart attack in similar to that of people who have never smoked. The risk of death returns to nearly the level of a non-smoker.

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Congrats!! You can totally do this. My Fiancee quit smoking almost 3 years ago now. He quit cold turkey and hasn't gone back. He did admit to me a couple months ago that he had a leisure cigarette with a friend and said it was NASTY and he can't believe he actually smoked in the first place. Said he would never start again!!

I'm so proud of you and you can keep this up!!

SondraMama said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

i am / was a smoker? I don't know yet. I'm struggling and I want to badly go and get a pack of newports. But, I won't. I refuse. I am nursing my baby. during pregnancy and the 2 years of nursing (so, three years almost), I don't smoke. I didn't with my first born but as soon as he was done nursing at 22 months, i picked up a pack of cigaretts =[ ugh. its so hard, but i try to keep myself busy and not think about it, even though i have tons of friends who DO smoke =/ i sit outside with them and i'm like, er ... jitter jitter.
good luck though! and try to keep busy is all I can say *hugs*

Debbie said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I used to smoke years ago. This phrase helped me "Each craving you have will pass whether you smoke a cigarette or not". Because when I craved one, I felt like I was going to live like that forever and I couldn't stand it, which made me give in. But just go with it and endure it a few minutes and it will be over. Then pretty soon those cravings will space out and then go away. Also - eat. So you gain a few pounds - big deal. You can deal with that later after the monster is off your back. Good luck - you CAN do this.

Tracy said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Good for you! You can do it! My father-in- law was a big smoker and it killed him...he died of a massive heart attack two years ago. It was horrible on our family. I have 2 relatives with new cancer diagnosis's due to smoking. It can kill you, or have you suffer horribly. Take your life and healthy in your can do it.

SnowflakeDay (Audra) said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Hang in there, if I can do it anybody can. I smoked a pack a day. I would wake up in the middle of the night and smoke. I quit when I became pregnant. I tell everyone that my daughter saved my life and it's true. Had I not gotten pregnant, I'm sure I would've never quit because it is so hard. I can tell you from experience, that for a very long time you're going to feel mad, irritated, weird, confused,'re going to want to smoke 24/7. I remember once I had gone about a month, I noticed I wasn't thinking about it every minute of every day anymore. What helped me was eating hard candy when I had the urge. Also working out helped kind of gives you the same sort of high for a while. Even after I delivered my daughter, I still wanted a cigarette...not physically I don't believe, but mentally. I remember buying a pack after she was born, smoking 1 cig and getting SO sick from it. I threw the rest of the pack in the trash and I've never smoked again. I promise you that one day, you'll get to a point where you don't want one anymore and you'll feel so free and so much healthier. Think of the $ you'll save, the time you'll gain, better health and you won't have that monkey on your back anymore. They ran commercials for a while that held true for me...the ones where people couldn't remember how to drive or do everyday activities. It was like that for me. I'd get in the car and want a cig. I'd wake up, and want a cig. I'd finish supper and want one. You've got to change that pattern in your brain and relearn a way to do everything without smoking. Good luck, you can do it, I know you can! :-)

Yes I Have A Coupon! said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

You can due it. If I can you can. My hardest thing is have a hubby that still smokes around you. :( but he is trying to quit to. I will admit I have one here or there but they are getting further and further apart as time goes on. It is worth it in the end. Just think about how much money you will save by quitting. Trust me do the math it is mind blowing.

Stephanie said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Congratulations for making the decision to quit! I'm glad that you have made it public to your blog, too - it will serve as a great motivator (in addition to all of the other ones too!). I hope your days get easier. I wish you all the luck!

Ronalee said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Congratulations on 5 days. My last cigarette was March 17, 2010.

thanks for sharing.

Amy said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Congratulations on the 5 days of smoke free life! I was a smoker before (smoked for over 10 year). Around 7 years ago, I quit cold-turkey style! It wasn't easy and I experienced all that you're experiencing now. That was my 4th (and last attempt to quit). Do it for yourself, do it for your family. You'll be glad when All these withdrawal symptoms are gone. You'll feel like a brand new person. Plus, think of all the $$$ you'll be saving. Treat yourself to a nice vacation or buy yourself a gift with those money you saved! :) See, that's another motivation. Hang in there! I totally support you, my friend.

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Good for you for posting this and getting support! I had/have the same secret. I quit as soon as I found out I was pregnant both times, but once my kids were born (I didn't breast feed) I started smoking "socially" again. Meaning...I didn't buy them, but if someone was around that was smoking, I was smoking with them. Around the holidays last year I started buying them again. My life has been one heartache after another this year, so I have been back to smoking pretty regularly. (Never around my kids, though, and they have no idea. I even change my clothes if I sneak outside to smoke before they go to bed.) I decided a few days ago that I needed to stop for good, though, so we'll see. My dad passed away in April from smoking, and there I was after his funeral, just puffing away. I don't want to do to my children what he did to me by leaving me too soon.

I'm so sorry I just left like a book about me, but I guess I just wanted to let you know that I'm in the same exact place you are right now and it sucks. If you ever want anyone to talk me! We can help each other with this struggle.

Good luck Crystal.

The Jacobsen Family! said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

You go girl!! I know it can be so hard to quit, and I commend you for doing so; not only for yourself but for your family! Stick to it!!

Lori said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

I quit in almost the same way. Was late for work and out of cigarettes. I thought to myself, "Do you think you can make it till noon without smokes?" It all started as a bit of a game. I made it to noon, the said to myself 2pm...if I can make it till 2, then I can run out for smokes if I really MUST. Then I just kept pushing the time forward. Worst times for me was when driving and when having a beer. To help, I had friends who knew to expect a call from me during my commutes. They would "talk me home." And I quit drinking beer...I switched to wine. After smoking for 20 years, I was able to quit!

I never told myself I couldn't have another smoke. Instead, I told myself I could....if I'd just want 10 minutes. Funny thing is, after a few minutes the hard cravings went away and I was ok.

Hang in there! For me the first 2 weeks were the worst; but then again at about a month I got an odd onslaught of cravings. I soldiered through and just told myself, "Yes...but in 10 minutes!"

I've been smoke free now for almost 10 years. Those 10 minutes really added up. ;)

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I have tears in my eyes. Or, I'm bawling. Its funny, I don't know you but I know your blog and read it often, and chat with you sometimes- and I have to tell you as the daughter of a woman who died due to illnesses she had from smoking, far too young, on 7/25/09-- your children will spend the rest of their lives so happy to have their mama here with them. I can't bring my mom back. I can't ever see her with my youngest, she won't ever hear my kids read a book to her or send her pictures in the mail. I can't bring her back. I can't ask her parenting questions or advice, and I can't hug her. I know that the quitting is hard, SO hard, and that you may want to start back up a million times. But if it helps, even once, just think about down the road, when your kids are older, and how much they'll want and need you around. Because if there was anything I could ever do to get my mom back, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'm sorry I'm so sappy this obviously hits home for me especially with the anniversary of my mom's death just 2 days away. I hope you don't take this as a lecture because it isn't intended as such at all- more as a sad daughter missing her mom like crazy and wishing that she was here- and knowing down the road your kids will be glad YOU are there. :o)
I'm proud of you and if you ever need support- don't hesitate. I mean it. Truly.

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I am not a smoker and have never smoked before. I do know that it is addicting because both my parents have smoked. It takes so much courage to stop smoking. And even more motivation to keep smoke free. Good luck! I know you can do it!

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I have attempted plenty of times to quit-at the moment my husband and I have not had one since last night and are trying the quitting approach again. I'm on a patch and he's going cold turkey. I've quit once before, so should be able to do it again. I give you props and say to keep your head held high. It takes a lot of strength to quit and you are doing a great job so far. If you fail-I hope no one will scold you. It is a long process and takes a lot to do. :) Hopefully everyone will supportive and realize you're a human being. Keep up the great work!!! :D

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Yay congrats on quitting! My husband and I quit right after we got married!

It will be 3 YEARS this New Years!

Becca said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

Yay for you! I have heard that quitting smoking can be very difficult. Do they have smokers anonymous meetings near you? Getting those little chips might help.

Terri said...Best Blogger Tips[Reply to comment]Best Blogger Templates

CONGRATS! On July 20th my sister celebrated one year of not smoking. It was rough for her in the beginning but she stuck to it. I'm so proud of her. Crystal, you can do it too. Take one day at a time and you will make it through these rough days at the beginning. GOOD LUCK!

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So happy for you and your family! You have made a fantastic decision for yourself and them. So stinky smelling skin and clothes. Lungs are starting to recover and your taste and smell are improving. Stay with it sweetie. Don't let that little piece of paper get the best of you. Get a sponsor and if you are tempted call them so they can talk some sense into you. The first two weeks are the hardest but you can do it. I know because I did!

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Congrats on the five days of not smoking. It has been twenty months since I quit. I quit cold turkey. I had the shakes, the headaches and stomaches for several weeks. I was irritable for what seemed like a long time. But now I can say that was all worth it to feel better and smell better. And I can breathe deeply for the first time in years. You can do it. I believe you can do it.

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I too struggle to quit and right now I am on the smokless cigarettes. They do keep you from wanting a "real" cigarette. I just found out they have a nicotine free one so I am looking at getting that. The habit for me is the hardest thing to break. I also used to smoke in my vehicle but recently bought a new one and we do not smoke in it. We managed to take a 6 hour trip with not one cigarette. It's a start and I am glad that I switched to the e-cigarette. Now time to reduce the dosage of nicotine and then to the nicotine free. I am under no illusion that it is going to be easy once I have went through this process. But with support of your immediate family it can make it less stressful. Good luck in your trying to quit.

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